No sleep last night well went to bed at 7am up again at 10am.
Had appt with NP and during the call discovered that my daughter may have taken the few Ativan pills I had left.
Can’t get new prescription as I have no money.
Called Income Support, I have been approved. Will receive $600 next week for April. Just great, perfect – I owe $800 for April rent. Not to mention power, phone, internet, car, insurance, food. But hold the bus here a minute, I will be getting $1150 per month starting May – 2 payments of $575. I know I should be grateful to be getting anything but when it doesn’t pay for me to live monthly I may as well have nothing, It isn’t going to ease my worries, anxiety, fears, etc. Suicide is big on my mind today. I will never heal my issues if I have to live this way everyday struggling financially and physically and mentally. I have just been reassured there will be no comfort, no peace, no happiness. Not to mention I probably wont see a cent of the $600 given how overdrawn my bank account is with NSF charges. I feel like I am on my way out. This has to stop one way or another.
Desperate for help I pulled up some support lines Suicide support and Wellness Canada. After staring at the numbers for the longest time I decided to call the latter. Got a 50-minute session immediately with a counselor while not really helpful it allowed me to express what I am feeling.
- Our system is failing us.
- No financial supports for Mental Illness
- I am one strong woman.
- I don’t want to die; I just don’t know how to live.
I try so hard.
I am struggling.
I just want someone to care.
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