While not my own words, I am all of this!
“My world has become so small. There [are] so many things I just don’t do anymore. Any kind of change is traumatizing. Even little things. It’s literally upsetting for me to have to change my clothes even. Hygiene has plummeted and is now another source of shame. The fear of being seen by anyone. I’m hiding out in my apartment, afraid to come out. I live in a fog of dissociation where time doesn’t make sense. I’m convinced my brain has deteriorated. I cannot think anymore. I’m scared all the time. Complex PTSD affects every aspect of my life. I’m not even sure I would call this living anymore.” — Heather C.
“Needing constant reassurance because, after years of gaslighting, it’s hard for me to trust my perception of things. I am constantly second-guessing myself. I’ve also had rather important relationships ruined because instead of freeze or flight, I have gone into fight after being triggered. Panic attacks and flashbacks don’t always look like fear or crying, sometimes they look like irritation and aggression.” — Lazarie E.
When living with a chronic disorder or illness, it’s normal to feel isolated in your experience and as if people don’t understand the habits your mental health issues manifests as. Whether you’re someone with C-PTSD who experiences hypervigilance, a sensitivity to noise and responses, anxiety, nightmares or a combination of them all — you aren’t alone in your experiences.
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