I am crippled with internal pain again tonight. I feel like I could literally cry myself to death. It hurts so bad, it is so heavy and painful. I keep telling my brain that I am ok, that I am safe, and that there is nothing to fear, yet here I am. I have so much hurt that needs to be released! So much pain that needs healed. I absolutely HATE these feelings. It awful. No known trigger tonight. The ugly monster just decided to come in and rear its ugly head. I am trying not to pity myself. I am trying not to play the victim. It just sucks and as of now I have zero control of when it strikes. As Sia says “out of the blue uninvited”.
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