Today I feel spent! I went to bed early last night (10pm) and slept until my alarm went off at 7am. I had set my alarm to get up and take the garbage and recycling out. I got up and did just that. I think the stress is getting me today. My rent for this month is not paid yet. As each day passes and it is left unpaid I get more stressed about it. Lil bit is expecting a cheque in the mail today or tomorrow and that will cover what I don't have. My anxiety has me imagining and fearing my landlord showing up at my door. I can't do people. I can't do confrontation. I Can't! I just finished digging through my closet to see if I could find an old bottle of vape juice and no luck. It seems at a time when vape juice was plentiful I got rid of all the old stuff. I am kicking myself in the arse today as I am about to run out. I did find lots of cigarettes though. I really do not want to go back to ciggies but it is not looking good here. I am trying to convince myself that this is just a bump in the road. Just a bump in the road! Not all days can be good and while this is not a great one, it also isn't the worst so I will take that as a win.
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